You know when you believe something about yourself your whole life?
When past experiences have thought you things, and your life/thoughts have revolved around those beliefs?
And you still try to change it, you still try to make things better... but your efforts only prove futile?


Has your life revolved around the idea that you can never get the one thing you want most... love?


It is either your appearance, personality, or self in general, that makes it so hard for you to ever experience it.
Oh, there might have been a time when you thought you were finally in love, but you were fooled, yet again.
You were lied to, and you are still lied to.
And this has made you grasp on to your beliefs, in fear that you might yet again fall for the same trap.

Then, someone comes along and tells you different, someone comes along and tells you what a great person you really are, that you do have a good appearance, and personality.

But after believing something for so long... its hard to accept it.
Instead of making you feel better, it makes you feel worse, because you know that you're going to get your hopes up again, just so they can be crushed... again.

Instead of hope, you feel fear. Fear that you will fall for the same trap again, and shatter.

Even if the person really means what they are saying, something deep inside of you tells you its another lie... and you keep telling yourself this in fear that you are yet again being lied to.

Your life is now a hopeless cause. You have lived believing something for so long... and now you can't accept the fact its not true...

"or... is it a fact? No, it can't be a fact..."

You think this way, and you move on with your belief. Lost, yet again.

You are like an abandoned ship, forever wandering the dark and merciless waters of the sea. The sails torn, like your confidence. The wood cracked, like your will to live. The whole ship broken... forgotten... non existent, like your heart.

Your life is not a tragedy, nor is it a catastrophe. There is only one word to describe your life now... pointless.
Why should you keep living like this? Why?
Where is your will to live anymore? Did you ever even have one...?

Yes... yes you did. And it was given by those who have lifted you up when times are hard. Maybe those same people are the ones who crushed you in the end... but they have kept you alive. It has kept you aimlessly wandering on the edge of life and death, of hope and fear, of hate and love.

Only know this. Everyone in this world deserves a second chance. One day, the world will give you yours. And when that day comes, hopefully you will forget your belief... and grasp that chance as hard as you can. The dangers you might face might be harder than before. But in the end, it will all be worth it...

"... hopefully."